'cause we were both young,when i first saw you
Nov. 28th, 2009 | 03:29 am
on occasions,incidents from way back come back to haunt you.
just felt a sense of regret all over again,from a conversation with someone online just now.looking back,it was probably one of the worst decisions i have ever made in my life.all i can put it down to is naivety,and stubborn-ness i guess.as they say,why fix something when's it's not broken?what made it worse was that i had a second shot at it all over again,but i fluffed it as well.akin to ballooning the rebound way over the bar in the last second of a match with an open goal gaping.and the chance was gone forever.who knows what could have been,if i took it.at least i would have found out.
yes,you can't undo the past.you can only learn from your mistakes.try to understand what went wrong.but it's the regret you feel that sears the incident into your mind.the thoughts that come to you unwittingly on sleepless nights,or at random moments of your daily life;maybe when you're stoning on the bus,or you're at home watching TV,or when you're taking a break from work.
you never really move on.its like a scar;everytime you look at it,you remember what caused the wound.you can cover it up with clothing or concealer or whatever powder,but it will always be there,to serve as a reminder.because even after all this while,it still hurts.
just this once,just for once;
and just like that,
its over.
just felt a sense of regret all over again,from a conversation with someone online just now.looking back,it was probably one of the worst decisions i have ever made in my life.all i can put it down to is naivety,and stubborn-ness i guess.as they say,why fix something when's it's not broken?what made it worse was that i had a second shot at it all over again,but i fluffed it as well.akin to ballooning the rebound way over the bar in the last second of a match with an open goal gaping.and the chance was gone forever.who knows what could have been,if i took it.at least i would have found out.
yes,you can't undo the past.you can only learn from your mistakes.try to understand what went wrong.but it's the regret you feel that sears the incident into your mind.the thoughts that come to you unwittingly on sleepless nights,or at random moments of your daily life;maybe when you're stoning on the bus,or you're at home watching TV,or when you're taking a break from work.
you never really move on.its like a scar;everytime you look at it,you remember what caused the wound.you can cover it up with clothing or concealer or whatever powder,but it will always be there,to serve as a reminder.because even after all this while,it still hurts.
just this once,just for once;
and just like that,
its over.
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long-term effects
Nov. 26th, 2009 | 05:39 pm
disappointing result for Man United against Besiktas this morning in the Champions League.the 1-0 loss meant we threw away our unbeaten record at home in Europe,a run which had stretched for twenty-odd matches.granted,it was a young United side,but they had more than enough chances to win the game.Rustu Recber's two excellent saves in the dying minutes to deny the Reds the equaliser wouldn't have mattered at all if at least one of the other twenty-three shots the Devils took had ended up in the back of the net.throughout the entire match,United looked like they lacked the cutting edge,the clinical finish.some of the youngsters were promising,Obertan in particular,but until they produce an end product,they will never fulfil their potential in the first team.at the end of the day,football is all about scoring more goals than your opponent.Fergie will have a lot to ponder upon.
its been a mundane week at home.trying to finish up the TIME and Discovery Channel magazines i still have yet to read,but only managed to reduce the pile of them by an issue or two.nonetheless,there are some other things to do,which i hope to complete by end of this week.
and it looks like there's no chance of me playing soccer this weekend.the ankle doesn't seem to be getting any better,apart from the initial swelling having gone down.the area around the ball of my ankle still puffs up,and hurts at the slightest touch.there's an almost constant dull pain.think i may have to make another visit to the doctor this weekend.fuck.
soft kiss and wine,
what a pretty friend of mine
its been a mundane week at home.trying to finish up the TIME and Discovery Channel magazines i still have yet to read,but only managed to reduce the pile of them by an issue or two.nonetheless,there are some other things to do,which i hope to complete by end of this week.
and it looks like there's no chance of me playing soccer this weekend.the ankle doesn't seem to be getting any better,apart from the initial swelling having gone down.the area around the ball of my ankle still puffs up,and hurts at the slightest touch.there's an almost constant dull pain.think i may have to make another visit to the doctor this weekend.fuck.
soft kiss and wine,
what a pretty friend of mine
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of keeping the soul alive
Nov. 22nd, 2009 | 02:40 pm
twisted my ankle yesterday during soccer in the morning.stuck out my right foot to block Jason's shot,and i succeeded,but the ball hit my foot at an awkward angle,which swept my ankle out away from me while i was going the other way for a split second.tried to fall to the other side as fast as i could,but it was too late to prevent it.went home to ice it and wait it out,but when i got up this morning it still hurt and was more swollen than yesterday,so Mum brought me to TTSH.Doc said it was a bad sprain,most probably with some ligament damage as well,so i got five days' MC,as well as a possible orthopedic appointment if it doesn't heal well after a couple of weeks.that said,im glad no bones were broken (i did an X-Ray),and it does feel better now after the nurse bandaged it.im looking at possibly close to a month without playing soccer though :(
watched Man United outclass Everton at home this morning.really dominant performance,but i still think they lack the cutting edge.could have been sharper,'cause there were still too many stray passes for my liking.and Owen was disappointing,quite frankly.Rooney could have played better too,though he did hit the crossbar with a superb curling effort.but the midfielders were the ones who won the game yesterday,three of them scored,the other two had assists.Fletcher was the one who broke the deadlock,and what a way to break it;a stunning first time volley hit just outside the area from Valencia's nod-back from an Evra cross into the top corner.who knew he had it in him!it was excellent technique,the way he arched and got his shoulder over the ball to keep it down.it really amazing how far he has come,how much he has improved from three,four seasons ago.my Man of the Match.the other two came from Carrick,off a Giggs low cross,and Valencia,whose shot from Scholes's lay-off took a slight deflection.overall a comfortable victory,and keeps us behind Chelsea and in a position to take advantage of any slip-ups they make.
soccer is really my passion.and to think i thought it was a silly game of twenty men chasing one ball on a field when i was young.and so perhaps,i would do my best to not compromise it whenever i can,even if it may not seem logical at times.after all,humans are emotional beings at heart.
maybe it's just me
couldn't you believe
that everything i said and did
wasn't just deceiving
watched Man United outclass Everton at home this morning.really dominant performance,but i still think they lack the cutting edge.could have been sharper,'cause there were still too many stray passes for my liking.and Owen was disappointing,quite frankly.Rooney could have played better too,though he did hit the crossbar with a superb curling effort.but the midfielders were the ones who won the game yesterday,three of them scored,the other two had assists.Fletcher was the one who broke the deadlock,and what a way to break it;a stunning first time volley hit just outside the area from Valencia's nod-back from an Evra cross into the top corner.who knew he had it in him!it was excellent technique,the way he arched and got his shoulder over the ball to keep it down.it really amazing how far he has come,how much he has improved from three,four seasons ago.my Man of the Match.the other two came from Carrick,off a Giggs low cross,and Valencia,whose shot from Scholes's lay-off took a slight deflection.overall a comfortable victory,and keeps us behind Chelsea and in a position to take advantage of any slip-ups they make.
soccer is really my passion.and to think i thought it was a silly game of twenty men chasing one ball on a field when i was young.and so perhaps,i would do my best to not compromise it whenever i can,even if it may not seem logical at times.after all,humans are emotional beings at heart.
maybe it's just me
couldn't you believe
that everything i said and did
wasn't just deceiving
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to soldier on
Nov. 20th, 2009 | 04:51 pm
certain events that happened this week got me thinking.
in this world where everything can change in the next instant,what are we really fighting for?belief,dreams,or simply just for a better tomorrow.you never know whether you'll achieve your aim,but if you never try,then there is absolutely no chance at all.
so why not take the plunge sometimes when you're faced with a situation that offers you the opportunity to better yourself?it may or may not work out;that's life.but if there isn't much to lose and there's the prospect of gaining more,why not?maybe it could turn out to be the break you've always been waiting for.and even if it fails,it's a failure that you can afford,and you learn from it all.
of course it's wise to make informed decisions.and everyone has different ways of thinking.logic may appeal to some,while emotions may cloud the judgement of others.im still trying my best to figure out my future.and im hopeful of finding people who have the same train of thought as me.
there's nothing wrong with being stable and ordinary.but if i can,i would like to lead an extraordinary life,in my own way.to be able to do what i believe in.to experience things out there in this huge world that perhaps normal people wouldn't be able to.i won't beat myself up if that doesn't happen.but i just don't want to have a lingering sense of regret,of what could have been,on my mind when i look back and take stock of my life in the future.
already gone
in this world where everything can change in the next instant,what are we really fighting for?belief,dreams,or simply just for a better tomorrow.you never know whether you'll achieve your aim,but if you never try,then there is absolutely no chance at all.
so why not take the plunge sometimes when you're faced with a situation that offers you the opportunity to better yourself?it may or may not work out;that's life.but if there isn't much to lose and there's the prospect of gaining more,why not?maybe it could turn out to be the break you've always been waiting for.and even if it fails,it's a failure that you can afford,and you learn from it all.
of course it's wise to make informed decisions.and everyone has different ways of thinking.logic may appeal to some,while emotions may cloud the judgement of others.im still trying my best to figure out my future.and im hopeful of finding people who have the same train of thought as me.
there's nothing wrong with being stable and ordinary.but if i can,i would like to lead an extraordinary life,in my own way.to be able to do what i believe in.to experience things out there in this huge world that perhaps normal people wouldn't be able to.i won't beat myself up if that doesn't happen.but i just don't want to have a lingering sense of regret,of what could have been,on my mind when i look back and take stock of my life in the future.
already gone